Hey folks! Hope you are all doing well. I am, for the most part. Right now I've been at home by myself for about twelve hours so I'm going a little stir crazy, but that's neither here nor there.
I know that on Christmas Eve I posted on my Facebook page about needing your support, and what not, and I still do, but not as much as I thought I did.
On Christmas Eve, someone I know, and don't respect in the least completely ripped off one of my paintings. I was devastated, and I felt alone, because I felt like no one understood how naked I felt. I was so angry at this person for taking something from me that is irreplaceable in my mind. My muse, inspirations, and ideas are what I am as a painter. It's what sets all of us apart in the art world. I love, respect, and envy my best friend and her talents, but I would NEVER completely take something from her and claim it as my own.
My feelings were hurt, and I was extremely disappointed in this person. I welcomed them into my home, and for a time I actually thought we may be friends. I was clearly mistaken. Friends do not do this to each other, granted by the time this happened she was off fucking up her life way more than it already needed. I think I am also disappointed, because as a fellow "Artist" she should have enough respect for me not to do something like this. Whatever. At the end of the day, I'm not a liar and a thief so I can rest easy knowing that I don't feign Christianity and then act like a complete jackass.
I do have to thank those of you who were happy to support me, and do not tolerate this nonsense. I also have to thank my best friend for her guidance, because if it wasn't for her I would have been shamelessly petty and threatened this girl with every fiber of my being. I mean who doesn't like telling someone how much they'd love to light them on fire, and watch their skin melt, like so many candles? Just me? Alight.... Anyway, she was my clarity in my moment of homicidal rampage. Last but certainly not least, I have to thank my wonderful boyfriend. When I got back into town I had him compare the paintings and all he could say is "Wow her's really sucks. You have way more talent than she does." Maybe it was this justification that made me realize that no matter what she does and who she steals from, it will never be good or genuine.
Other than that I had a really great Christmas. It was the first time I was able to travel for the holidays in five years, and the first Christmas I've been able to spend with my family in three years. Totally worth it. I love my family, and I wouldn't trade them for anything!
Have a great week!
