For the love of a girl....

Hey guys! I'm not having the greatest week, but I still wanted to share something that makes me so happy it brings me to tears.

I guess it's a little insight into my life, and it's a part of me I am happy to share.

I'm sure a lot of you have pets or have had pets in the past, and there is always a bond there. It's like taking care of a child, watching them grow, and then giving them the best viking funeral you possibly can. It's always hard to watch them go, and it never gets easier. They become your family, your babies.

So anyway, once upon a time my ex fiance wanted a dog. I already had a dog, but he wanted one of his own. I would never object to that, after all, I love animals, and Sweet Baby Jesus I love me some puppies.

We ended up getting a little Bull Terrier, and she was a little stubborn turd, but I loved her all the same. She was so misunderstood, and nobody really seemed to like her, including my ex. I thought that was comical, because he spent so much money on her, and didn't even want her. We bonded though, and I blessed her with the name Neely. It means "The Victor", and it was so fitting.

I always used to feel so bad, because she didn't get dealt the right hand in life. She was rejected by her mother, because she was the runt, and her siblings turned on her and attacked her as well. Her front legs were covered in scabs when we brought her home. Matt never loved her, and let her fall the wayside, and her training was never a priority. She was a whole lot to handle, but despite all of these things, she was sweet and she was my girl.

When shit hit the fan in my relationship she was always there for me, and when we made it out on the other side I was so happy she was with me. She reminded me of myself at the time, because we had both been so abused and put down. We didn't know how to act normal, and we were both so neurotic. She never quite made it out of that mentally, but it was fine, because when I did I was happy to love her as she was.

As time went on, I made friends who didn't quite understand her, but they grew to love her anyway. Looking back on it, those moments were so touching, and those friends have no idea the kind of impact they made on me, on her, and on us.

Probably one of the worst days of my life is when she passed away. She was only two years old, and I felt like I had failed her. I carried so much guilt, and heartache. I remember it was on Valentines day, and now it seems so fitting. She had so much love to give, and there was so much love and support given to me on that day. I felt like I knew the true meaning of the Holiday.

So now that I've rambled on about my dog, I'll post the only picture that will be on this blog this week.

I got a tattoo of my girl, of the sweetest girl I've ever known. I cried for ten minutes afterwords, because I was so happy. It is amazing, and by far the best tattoo I've ever gotten. I love it, and I love her. She was the best. Thank you for reading.

Have a great rest of the week.

Good Vibrations: Don Jon Chat Session

Hey lovlies! It's been a while since I've updated, and I wholeheartedly apologize.

Basically my life is so incredibly hectic. I'm assuming it will be this way until I'm done with college. The big leagues are no joke! So with that being said, I'm going to update when I can. This is sort of a hiatus, but if I have time and inspiration I will totally share my insight with you all!!! I know, I know. I'm awesome. You're welcome.

Now, with that out of the way we can talk about Don Jon... Beyond this point is spoilers, so don't read if you don't want to know. You have been warned.

This movie is a soft core porno... Plain and simple, but it's a good soft core porno. If you don't know what I mean by 'soft core', I mean there is no private parts. Everything is insinuated, and unless you're completely brain dead, you understand that everyone is 'doing the do' in this movie.

Sir Ian keeps it classy.

 I loved it. Maybe I'm just easy to please, and yes if you put eye candy like Joseph Gordon-Levitt in front of me, I'm going to swoon and be overcome with the vapors or whatever. He is a dimebrizzle! Goodness me.

My overies.... 10/10 would trade glasses with. (He wears glasses. Even cuter)

Alright alright... Let's all calm down here... Or we'll just talk about Scarlett Johansson! She is my lady crush. She has her septum pierced. We were made to be friends! Bahaha, but seriously I was so sad she played such a BITCH. Ugh she looked like a hood rat the whole duration of the movie. Where is the sweet woman I fell in love with? Oh yeah.... It's a movie. Whatever, y'all I was really enthralled in this flick. It was awesome. I hated her though... Barbara... GTFO with your attitude, you freaking Jersey Diva.

I juss wanna be frans.

One thing I will say is, I love how they advertised this movie as one for 'our generation', which I guess is where I categorize myself? I related really well with the characters, even if I didn't have a porn addiction, or some other crazy lifestyle. It was all just so familiar, and maybe that's why I loved it so much. I could easily feel how the characters felt, and I could apply my life to theirs.

Lmao for real though.... My poor mom....

My heart cries out to Jon, and the life long quest he is going through to find out who he his. I feel like it speaks to every person who has gone through a relationship. Sometimes these things that happen can make a better person out of you. There is always room to grow, and gain knowledge from your mistakes, and that's exactly what he did.

I loved when he had epiphanies in the Catholic confessional. There was something about the discoveries in himself that were so real. Again, this puppy is full of things that make you think about yourself.

Thank the internet for memes!

I loved Julianne Moore (She plays Esther). Oh my gosh she was a riot. She was a mentor in my mind. There was the nurturing aspect, although I will admit that I knew her and Jon were going to do the nasty as soon as she made her appearance. It was predictable. Sorry JGL! It's your first movie to write and direct. We'll let it slide this time. ;) However, I think that she is his turning point. She makes Jon strive to be better than what he is, but she's not pushy about it. She guides with a gentle hand, which is how most people like it. Don't tell them what to do... Help them along the way!

Hey eyes looked a little creepy in the movie, but she cried a lot so maybe that's why?

The ending left me feeling melancholy. It's not that the ending was sad, but it was more a bitter sweet feeling. Those endings are always strange. They seem to stick with me the longest, and make the biggest impact. I honestly wasn't ready for the movie to be over. I was yearning to follow this character throughout the span of his life and see how everything turned out. I just wanted him to be okay, because if he could go through what felt like hell (to him) then why can't any of us?

Best cake ever....

Go watch it. I'm probably going to watch it again. Unf... Don't take your mother to see this movie!!! You have to be comfortable with lots of boobs and moaning. Just FYI.

I cannot contain myself!!!!!!

Have a great rest of the week. AMERICAN HORROR STORY STARTS TONIGHT! I wait all year for that series. It consumes my life.

P.S. I'm sick. Life sucks, and string cheese does not taste near as good coming up as it did going down.